Diamond coated lamb

Yes, you read right. Diamond coated lamb. So on sunday my mum was making lamb curry, and a while ago i have her my diamond ring to wear. So this ring had ten square diamond set on it and so I didn't want to wear it too school. Now, my mum lost it. So i was going really upset. We looked everywhere, we even went through the god damn bin! At the end we realised we would never find it and i accepted my defeat. So later on when my um finished cooking the lamb and was plating it up what do i see but my diamond ring. Yes thats right, mum just cooked lamb curry with a diamond ring. Im really happy that the stones didn't fall off, but the sides did burn a little. But at least we found it.

On other news, while my dad is gone my OCD has kicked in. I spent the first half of the day vacuuming the house. Every single corner of the house is now dust free,  including behind sofas and other furniture. I also cleaning and scrubbed the whole bathroom clean. Tiring but worth it. Tomorrow i shall wipe the stair case and maybe clean the toilets.

I really dont want holidays to end. I don't want to go into year 12 :( The only thing thats going to get me through is knowing tat after the HSC i don't have to study till UNI!

I miss you so much.

I had a dream about my grandfather last night. This year will be the 4th year of his passing. My grandfather was like my best friend, he was always there for me always talked to me and played with me when i was young. He never divided the love he gave me to any of his other grandkids. What we had was special. It was unbreakable. And times like this i wish i could talk to him or give him a hug.

It's sad how i call his mobile but no one ever picks up, i write him letters but he never reads. I call out his name at home and he never responds. It's been four years yet if i still think about him you will find me crying. Anyways this dream i had about him made me miss him even more. My grandmother is coming to Australia next month and yesterday i was talking to her about how many years later she will see me. The dream went like this...

So i was somewhere old, it looked like India, but a place in india i have never been to. It was old and had broken stairs and the walls were made of clay. I saw my grandfather and ran up to him. He was leaning again a door or wall, i don't remember. So i asked him, "Your going to come  to Australia! Your going to come after 8 years!" And something happened which i don't remember but then someone said "your grandfather is dead" and i said no he's not, I'm talking to him now. And there like no he's dead and i didn't believe it.  Then their like he died 4 years ago and they showed me his picture with garlands around it. And then i remember bursting into tear and crying for 2.5 hours? Yes 2.5, weird :s.

And when i woke up i had a massive headache and my face was wet from crying. I wish i could see or talk to him again. He is honestly one of my favourite persons in the world. Probably more so than my parents. So, you can see how much i love him.

My first day of driving

I was so upset and frustrated yesterday that i completely forgot to blog about my first day of driving. I got my licence in july and finally after about 2 months I was finally allowed to drive. Now my parents refuse to teach me until i have had 6-7 lessons from an instructor. Why? no idea. So yesterday I went. It was fun, kind of scary but mostly fun. The roundabouts were really scary because i thought i was going to crash and die. I ended up going at 80km/h and the lady nearly killed me and kept pressing the break every time :( My next lesson is on friday which I'm really excited about. I cant wait till i have had a few lessons so i can drive my parents car. Anyways, I'm off to my sisters house for the whole day to see my beautiful niece =D
Ciao x.

A message to my parents.

Everyone is so busy these days. I feel like i'm living in a hostel. Dad comes home and spends time cleaning the house, feeding or playing with the dog or spending time to his self or doing his research work. Mum comes home and does all the cooking or her office work. I have no time to talk to or communicate with anyone. I feel like I'm living in those Bollywood movies where the mum and dad are always working and the child is only alive because of her servants and the heap of things there parents buy for them. Haven you seen those Bollywood films? If not, go watch one and you will know how i feel like. I am so sick and tiered of being alone and expected to entertain myself. And if i want to go out with my friends, oh no no, thats not going to happen. I wont be allowed. So what am i supposed to do? I am so frustrated at the moment. The only time i get to talk with my parents is when they are screaming at me for doing something. If i want to watch a movie with the family it always has to be a documentary about effing science. No normal movies in this household. My dad once took the bloddy whole family out to effing gold glass cinema to watch "The inconvenient truth" what the hell man? I just went there for the food, then i feel asleep. Seriously i feel as if there will be no difference if i live by myself because it bloddy well feels like it 100% of the time. What ever happened to the nuclear family? What ever happened to doing thing together or even sitting down at the family table and talking about the day? Ugh. Im just so frustrated.

WORST DAY OF 2012

So, how was my legal exam? I cried. Thats how it was. The love of my life (legal studies) has betrayed me! Thats right, do you hear this legal studies? you made me cry. How could you? Do you feel happy now? Huh? I thought what we had was something special...

So i sat there in my exam and had a black out on one of the short answer questions. Exactly what happened in my science exam last year for SC. I sat there in the middle of legal with nothing in my head. So what do i do? Instead of trying to think i start to cry. Followed by me giving up. Then i thought to my myself, "no don't give up" so i wrote like crazy and then i gave up again. Most of my exam was a mental battle.

I am so glad its only year 11 but still, this just brought down my self-esteem to a whole new low. I will never be able to become a lawyer, let alone purse my dream career of becoming a diplomat.

I admit...

I admit i didn't try for maths this year. In my defence the only thing i have to say is "I'm a gemini". Looking at the test today i realised that it was really easy if i actually payed attention in class. oh well. I will try next year though. I have no choice. The prelims are nearly over and i haven't talked to my dad since saturday when he left to germany. :'(
I remember at the beginning of the year i put my heart and soul into biology and now the night before the exam and i haven't made notes for the last topic. WHY SRESTHA ARE YOU DOING THIS T YOURSELF!

On other happy news, my grandma is coming to Australia next month :D And she is making me one of those name necklaces which i've always wanted. I wonder what name she is going to put on it seeing i have a gazzilion of names. One from each family member to be exact.

I cant wait to see my grandma, i haven't seen her since year 8 :(

I have a feeling i wont end up talking to my dad until he returns form germany which is sunday =='
Stupid time difference T_T

Wish you were here...

So my dad decided to head off to Germany today and leave me alone to tackle my Preliminary exams. Now, as much as I disliked my dad calling me up after school and interrogating me about my exams, I will miss it. I have to go through the preliminary exams without my dad. To you guys reading it  this might sound weird. But think about it, would you be able to do your exams without the support of one of your parents? I sure cant. Anyways, i will try my best even though I'm basically screwed for majority of my subjects. By majority i mean ALL. You know, as much as I'm scared for my exams, I'm also really excited. I'm going to be in year 12 o.O. Anyways, I just wanted a little break from studying. I shall retreat into my little cave and study for the night.


GOALS FOR THE HOLIDAY
'- Learn how to make caramel slice
- Read a book
- Take the dog for a walk
- SLEEP
- EAT
-LAUGH