So we have one week until our trial examination commences. Two weeks of trials later we will be launching into week 6. school then goes on for 4 weeks and then we graduate. ha. ha. ha. i am about to die. i mean i knew this was all coming so fast but its just too fast! i havent even properly conversed with half the oeople in my grade yet. anyways today was a good day. Mr. Celestino bought us $255 worth of pizza for the environmental club. i think i ate too much and now i cant move. guess i will be skipping dinner. we planted trees today. many of us just to skip the last period of school haha. it was actually quite fun even though i thought it was going to be be boring. the day was beautiful and what better way to spend it than half of the year 12's in the sun. we finished planting trees with around 40 minutes to spare so i just lay in the grass and stared up at the sky. there was literally no clouds, a sweet breeze and the warm sun. perfect. it felt like i had nothing to worry about in the world and everything was fine. LOL and then i got up and remebered i have trials in a week and my bubble just burst. i honestly cant wait till HSC is over i will just go to play happy/run away place (which is eagle vale lake in case you didnt know) and just sit there staring at the sky and thinking how perfect life is. i know that after my hsc exams i will be stressing out even more because of my ATAR but i guess stressing wont change anything. me stressing is not going to get my marks any higher or lower. what is done and done and all i can do now to the lead up for trials and HSC is just study to my best and pray for the best. speaking of praying i dont think i went to the temple in a few months now haha :P anyways guys i am now going to go spend this lovely Friday night studying for the stupid trials which i am shitting my self about.
signing off,
Forger xo.
Friday 26 July 2013
Wednesday 24 July 2013
Drifting poles apart
So i think its safe to say that i have drifted poles away from one of my best friends. We were very close from primary through to when she decided to get a boyfriend. And because of our heavy HSC time tables we hardly had the time to communicate. But i still tried. I texted and called her and she would hardly pick up or even send a courtesy text saying "sorry i missed your call whats up?". But i kept trying because i really valued the friendship we had. But every time i texted her she wouldn't answer and when she did it was simple one worded answers which made me question why i was even trying. I had been trying for months and I got nothing out of it. Its such a shame that a friendship so close has gone to a waste. Its always me who is trying to connect with others and keep the ball rolling. I have tried enough. The ball is in her court now.
Monday 22 July 2013
Dear Diary
The last week was surprisingly productive and i hope to keep it like that till the 6th of November. It's so close i can taste the freedom! I have neglected by daily journal which is really sad because one of my new years resolutions was to write in the diary more frequently. So yeah i am on a new mission to change my change/enlighten my self and basically become a better person. I guess we all have to put our contribution into the world to make it become a better place. I also selfishly ate a whole box of chocolates which i am now regretting. I bought my formal dress in April and im hoping it still fits because of all the binge eating i have been doing. Sometimes i think i should go on a diet and then i think of all the glorious food there is in the world and I'm like "LOL screw it" :L so yeah TRIALS ARE EFFING CLOSE! AHHH. My plan for this week is to get extra work done because my darling and one and only niece is turning one this sunday and being the awesome aunty i am i have to decorate the whole hall they hired for her birthday. I am so tiered i just want to sleep and eat brownies but i have to do the stupid HSC. ugh.
on other good news one of my best fiends who is finishing uni this year is getting married in february which will be amazing because
(a) its within my four month holiday after HSC
(b) she's like a sister I've known her since i was 3 and we always had joint birthdays even though she is 6 years older than me haha. so i am super pumped and excited because SHES GETTING MARRIED. wait what o.0
man every one is growing up :( like i JUST started high school and now i have 9 weeks till a graduate T_T i mean i can clearly remember the first day of school when i went to school with two crazy pigtails . haha i remember that I cried in the first week of school because all my friends were in 7D and i was in 7F and i kept on begging my parents to talk to the principle to change me to that class *sigh* how time flies. anyways I'm off to face the disgusting amount of homework that awaits my humble desk that has served me since 1999.
Signing off,
Forger xo
on other good news one of my best fiends who is finishing uni this year is getting married in february which will be amazing because
(a) its within my four month holiday after HSC
(b) she's like a sister I've known her since i was 3 and we always had joint birthdays even though she is 6 years older than me haha. so i am super pumped and excited because SHES GETTING MARRIED. wait what o.0
man every one is growing up :( like i JUST started high school and now i have 9 weeks till a graduate T_T i mean i can clearly remember the first day of school when i went to school with two crazy pigtails . haha i remember that I cried in the first week of school because all my friends were in 7D and i was in 7F and i kept on begging my parents to talk to the principle to change me to that class *sigh* how time flies. anyways I'm off to face the disgusting amount of homework that awaits my humble desk that has served me since 1999.
Signing off,
Forger xo
Thursday 18 July 2013
Ugh.
My feeling at the moment is "Ugh." Ugh about life in general and "awesome" people it has. I have an english assessment tomorrow and instead of studying for it I am moping around the house at the verge of tears because i am just feeling ugh. I really don't want to talk to anyone to see anyone and just basically stay away from humans in general for the rest of my life (or at least until this unnecessary and uncalled for emotion decides to go away). my emotion now: i hate every living thing, besides the dog.
Its just sad that when I sense that something is wrong with my friends i hit them a text or a call just to see if they're okay because sometimes you need someone to do that. its just sad that I have never sad the same done to me. Anyways, i am so annoyed at myself that i am not studying and just lying in my bed just staring at my stupid notes. This is my HSC here! Ugh. I'm done.
Signing off,
Forger.
Its just sad that when I sense that something is wrong with my friends i hit them a text or a call just to see if they're okay because sometimes you need someone to do that. its just sad that I have never sad the same done to me. Anyways, i am so annoyed at myself that i am not studying and just lying in my bed just staring at my stupid notes. This is my HSC here! Ugh. I'm done.
Signing off,
Forger.
Tuesday 16 July 2013
Beginning Of the End
So in a few hours i will be going to school to start my LAST term of High school and Schooling in general. This is going to go so fast and i hope it will fill with memories that i can cherish forever. So i have an exam on friday, Trial exams week 4 and 5 which i am scared shitless about and then i have my graduation, celebration day and year 12 picnic. LE DEAD.
On other news yesterday I picked up my artwork from Mr. Frames and I am really happy with it. I hope i get the mark i want. *sigh* The sad thing is that the artwork is my height so when i carry it around it looks funny. Anyways, i have to get to school soon so i shall leave you guys here.
Signing out,
Forgers. x.
On other news yesterday I picked up my artwork from Mr. Frames and I am really happy with it. I hope i get the mark i want. *sigh* The sad thing is that the artwork is my height so when i carry it around it looks funny. Anyways, i have to get to school soon so i shall leave you guys here.
Signing out,
Forgers. x.
Wednesday 10 July 2013
skateboard
Did I mention i bought a skateboard? Well just incase i didn't... I BOUGHT A SKATEBOARD BEFORE MY HSC EXAM! mostly probably I will break my leg in the process of learning and die. But I am super excited! I have always wanted a skateboard and I finally have one. I have started learning on the carpet and once i can keep balance on that I will shift to the pavement =D
I will let you guys know how that goes :)
I will let you guys know how that goes :)
"The days we were happy"
Some of you may recognise my title from elsewhere. Yes it is in fact the name of a famous artwork that has appeared in the HSC visual art test papers and from which I seeked influence for my initial body of art. "The days we were happy". The artwork is a series of photographs torn in half and simply taped together in the middle showing how the artist valued the times in those images and wants them back. The title of the artwork really got me thinking. Was there ever a time in my life, like the artist when "we were happy", we referring to my family. And the answer to that question is yes. Now don't get me wrong, we are in no means sad or depressed but I feel there was a time when we were just happy and not running after work and slugging behind the consumerist society like we all do today. Or maybe I just think that because I was young an naive and didn't have a care in the world besides what clothes I should put in my Bratz Doll.
Its been 8 years since I moved into the place which i hesitantly refer to as "home". Despite living here since the age of 9 I still believe that Campsie is my home. The streets and people still seem familiar to me even though I have been separated from that place for nearly a decade. I feel like when we lived in campsie there was nothing to worry about. There was time for family and there was time for friends. There was the opportunity to become friends with my neighbours and play with them in the afternoon. Oh how I miss that so much. Even when I moved into this place there was no one to play games with like I did in campsie, and there still isn't. Everything was close by and the shops always stayed open till 7 at the earliest even on normal working days. There was never a dull moment in Campsie. And here, well its like I live in the country side or something because lights are off in every household by 8pm. The streets are always quiet and no one ever says hello to anyone. If you drive for a minute or two TOWARDS the CBD of this area you see horses. Yes horses.
I dont know why but I still cant regard this place entirely as "home". I guess it is kind of home but i still feel like i truly belong in Campsie. The parks and the streets, the libraries and the small stores are all so familiar to me. I have a memory stuck on every street and every lamppost. It was in campsie that i was truly happy and sometimes I feel that if i didn't move here I would still be "happy".
After HSC I will be spending most of my time in Campsie just taking in the whole atmosphere. I cant even begin to explain how much I love campsie and how much credit it deserves for making me who I am today. To me campsie is like that magical land where everything is always magical.
Its been 8 years since I moved into the place which i hesitantly refer to as "home". Despite living here since the age of 9 I still believe that Campsie is my home. The streets and people still seem familiar to me even though I have been separated from that place for nearly a decade. I feel like when we lived in campsie there was nothing to worry about. There was time for family and there was time for friends. There was the opportunity to become friends with my neighbours and play with them in the afternoon. Oh how I miss that so much. Even when I moved into this place there was no one to play games with like I did in campsie, and there still isn't. Everything was close by and the shops always stayed open till 7 at the earliest even on normal working days. There was never a dull moment in Campsie. And here, well its like I live in the country side or something because lights are off in every household by 8pm. The streets are always quiet and no one ever says hello to anyone. If you drive for a minute or two TOWARDS the CBD of this area you see horses. Yes horses.
I dont know why but I still cant regard this place entirely as "home". I guess it is kind of home but i still feel like i truly belong in Campsie. The parks and the streets, the libraries and the small stores are all so familiar to me. I have a memory stuck on every street and every lamppost. It was in campsie that i was truly happy and sometimes I feel that if i didn't move here I would still be "happy".
After HSC I will be spending most of my time in Campsie just taking in the whole atmosphere. I cant even begin to explain how much I love campsie and how much credit it deserves for making me who I am today. To me campsie is like that magical land where everything is always magical.
Monday 1 July 2013
Last Holidays
So its the first day of holidays!... and I'm already procrastinating! Its my last holiday before i graduate! WHAT! MY LAST BLODDY SCHOOL HOLIDAY FROM 13 YEARS OF SCHOOLING! Time is going super fast and i really should get my shit together and study. So first week back after holidays i have two exams then i have a two week assessment free period and then BAM BAM BAM TRIAL EXAMINATIONS!. I am so done. (#mfhs2013) I am so excited and scared. Mainly for my HSC. I just want to get into my course and i will be content with life.
I really don't want to waste these holidays like i do every holiday, i actually want to finish the holidays saying i have done everything i planned to do. I hope i can do it. So its now 11:30, i initially planned to start studying at 9 am and then stop at 4 and have the rest of the day off, but i guess thats not happening :( Nothing really interesting happened from the last time i blogged besides my addiction to coconut frozen yogurt.
Signing off,
Forger xo.
I really don't want to waste these holidays like i do every holiday, i actually want to finish the holidays saying i have done everything i planned to do. I hope i can do it. So its now 11:30, i initially planned to start studying at 9 am and then stop at 4 and have the rest of the day off, but i guess thats not happening :( Nothing really interesting happened from the last time i blogged besides my addiction to coconut frozen yogurt.
Signing off,
Forger xo.
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