2nd term of yr 12

So i have exactly 7 months and 22 days till i graduate and will never see this school again. I cant wait to graduate. The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the HSC. All I can do is give it my best and try my best to do as much as i can and make it perfect. AHHH. I'm actually happy that school started again. Mainly because it is keeping me focused and I'm actually doing the work as opposed to moping around  the house and eating food and watching madeline. Anyways, I really don't have much time, nor do i have much to say so bye bye. I will write again when something interesting happens.

School is starting + more fire close to my house

So... These holidays have gone by so fast i dont even remember doing anything that significant. School starts on thursday and i am filled with guilt as i havent finished all the things that i had wanted to finish :( 8 months till i graduate. yay?i want to leave school so badly but i dont want to at the same time. There are a few people whose faces i dont ever want to see again in my life and there are those who i want to stay in touch with forever. Most of all i will  miss my bestfriends. I wont be able to laugh at lunch time and see them every day. *sigh*
On a much sadder note thanks to the holidays i have gained 7 kilos in the holidays. Is that even possible?! So now i have to loose this if i want to find a formal dress this year. Hopefully i can drop it by december when our formal is supposed to be held.
Yesterday was a good day. In the morning I went to tutour the little girl who lives behind me and then i came home and got dressed to go to Chloe and Phoebes house. Which is always fun. We all catched up and had heaps of fun. I cant wait to see them again. They always end up motivating me :P And i really needed  that since school is starting. I cant wait till after HSC when I can catch up with them  again. After we left we went to my cousins house for Dinner which is always fun. I ate a plate of salad with my food which is I'm really proud of because i hardly eat any greens unless im forced. I love this weather so much. It's good with a cup of COFFEE and a good movie or book. But sigh i have a bunch of HSC deamons waiting for me on my desk. I should really  go and start but i dont want to :( Oh well time to listen to more HOT CHELLE RAE xD

On other news mother nature loves to see us suffer in heat and give us panic attacks with fire. I was at Granville on friday with my mum at the station about to come home when we both got a text from the NSW rural fire service saying that there was a fire at Bow Bowing and  it was burning and advancing fast and that we should immediately take cover. My first thought was my dog who was at home and we were all the way in granville. Luckily nothing happened. We got home and we saw that the fire had advanced alot. The hill that is a 1 minute drive from my place was burnt black and the fire had  advanced to the opposite side of Minto Train Station. They were sand bombing the place and there were fire trucks everywhere. Luckily by the time I was seeing this it was over and they were just finishing it off. I never thought fire would come to South West Sydney but i guess it did. Now we should really make a fire plan.

One love.

FIRE AT CAMPBELLTOWN + HSC timetable

So I was on the board of studies website today and I saw that my HSC key dates were up. My HSC starts on October 14th and goes until 8th November. ATAR comes out on 18th December and Uni offers on the 14th of January. I know it seems so far away to many it feels so close. I am officially "shit scared"

On other news I have been watching Madeline in an effort to re live my childhood that was HSC stress free. You guys should all watch madeline. All the episodes can be found on youtube. There are three seasons and 236 Episodes. They stopped making it after 2001. The first one was made in 1993! And can you believe that the first book of Madeline was written in 1939!
Yeah anyways, enough about madeline. My life is very boring there is not the tinniest bit of excitement. I really don't want to go back to school. I hope mother nature doesn't go on her period and give us another heat wave when I'm back in school. Australia  is so bi polar. Yesterday, all day it was 45.5 degrees and then all of a sudden at 7 ish it started to cool and a storm stated coming with fierce winds and then by 8 it was 23. T______T seriously?

I went to macarthur square with my mum yesterday and while i was at ally the shop keeper told all the customers that the rural fire service had called to say that a fire had started in glen alpine (which is 5-7 minutes away from macarthur square) and to "take shelter when it comes"
WHAT?! WHAT? when it COMES! your telling me I'm going to be trapped in a FIRE! Luckily they had it under control and i didn't die. We also watched the life of pi last night which ended at 11:50 pm ish. The graphics were really good and i liked the story. It was really sad though, especially the time when Pi's parents died. And the mother effing tiger scared the shit out of me every time it came at the screen, especially because it was in 3D. But yeah that was i guess some excitement i had in my life. Today was very boring. I loved the weather today. In winter I want summer in summer i want winter. Why cant we have neutral temperature!?
Anyways, I'm out, peace.

Surprise from a friend

So on New Years day I received a text message from my best friend from kindergarden. She said she was coming to visit me! I was very excited because I hardly have the time to see her because she lives so far away (where I used to live). So she came yesterday and i knew there were track works on so i texted her the day before asking her to check the train time tables because there were track works on. She confirmed me that there was none. So yesterday morning I texted Angela (her name) and told her to tell me when she's at the station so i can go pick her up. She said "theres track works on" T____T yep, she checked the 2012 timetable for january. So she came anyways, and it took her 1and 1/2- 2 hours. I told her that because there's track works on she should come another day or i would come over because it would take her longer than usual. But she still came because thats what happens when you have been best friends since kindergarten! So we looked through our memory box and then went for a walk. We ate a tonne of food! courtesy to my mother who always cooks food for Angela =D We spent the rest of the afternoon finding people from kindergarden on FB man peoples faces have changed a lot! Except some who look exactly the same! Regardless it was fun to go down memory lane. It was getting dark and started to rain so i thought I would drop her to the station before it gets pitch black and she couldn't go home. It was sad saying goodbye because I have no idea when I'm going to see her next. Hopefully soon!

Stealing mangos

So my brother and I wanted to eat green mangos. The one on our tree were small but the one on out neighbours trees were much bigger and they were over the fence where it was public area. So we went there and tried to reach the mango. It was really high up and we couldn't reach it, even with my brother who is really tall,  jumping. We saw a log type thing lying around and tried getting it like that. But it made sounds and we realised that the neighbour might realise. We tried a bit more times before we thought we heard a sound. So we both legged it back to our house. On the way back we picked a mango from our tree which was small but enough for the both of us.

A trip to the farm.

So i went back to this farm i had gone to back in 2002. Since its been 10 years i expected major changed. To my great disappointment it was exactly the same. The last time we went we went with a few other family friends and stayed the night there. It was the worst night of my life because the rooms were disgusting they had spiders, frogs and all the insects you could think of. The toilets were the same. The only thing good about last time was that we got fresh milk from  the cows. We didn't stay this time. I think its safe to say that after seeing little improvement we all dreaded the thought of reliving that night. So, we stayed there for a while and then went to hunter valley. Everyone that was with me was over 18. So they all got to taste wine while i sat there in a corner drinking water from those water dispenser thingos. We did go to the cheese factory and tasted all types of cheese. We bought back some soft cheese which i am currently eating straight out of the container. The best cheese was Irish Cheddar and Labna. Blue cheese is disgusting and so os goat cheese. YUCK.  We went to a champagne factory as well. apparently they sell the best champagne and they won 3 years in a row for best champagne in the world. It was a 3 hour drive and by the time we got home it was 9:30pm. And we had left around 7 in the morning. So a very tiring day. Hunter valley is a really lovely place, so ill probably go back there once in 18 with my parents.

Brother you cant swim

So this morning my dad, brother and I went to the pools. It was fun because I basically laughed the whole time instead of swimming. My brother cant swim to save his life (literally) So my dad and I tried to teach him. My dad was like "okay I'm going to hold onto you and you just float" that didn't work he literally held on to my dad and never let go while dad was carrying him. So I tried teaching him. I help onto his hand first and made him try and float. That didn't work he nearly drowned. So i told him to hold onto the railing and paddle. He couldn't do it so i had to hold onto his legs. And guess what!? that didn't work either! So I just made my brother hold out his hands so i can use them as a base while i swim. That was pretty good. I came home and did a bit of my tutorials but got quickly bored so restored to listening to my favourite band. My brother came into my room later on and we talked and laughed and went through biology. I gave him my notes so he can actually study. We laughed bout people and reminisced about old times when we were in tutoring and people "breathed" on us. We also went though my memory box and laughed because I found a receipt from when my brother first bought me food! Whilst we were laughing and talking we were acting out scenes from old times. So we had the genius idea of recording them. It was so fail. Its like as soon as you go on camera all you were thinking goes out of your head and your left there blank. It's funny to look at though :P I haven't finished all my tutorials. I still have about 4 to go. I promised myself I will finish them tonight but I don't know how long that will take.

I want to...

I want to live my life surrounded by books. Books of all sorts. I want to constantly learn new things and discover new mysteries about the world. Build new theories and prove them right. I want to wake up to coffee by my side and a stack of papers to read. But not to read as a chore but to read for fun. I want to stay up all night reading and then force myself to put in down and go to sleep. I want to go an adventures to new countries and see the world. I want my window to outlook a forest where the algae  has taken over the tree trunks and the air always smells fresh. I want to go out to my balcony and take a whiff of the fresh air and feel deep down inside that this is freedom. I want to experience love. Ive never been in love but I imagine its kind of like the feeling you get when you see your food coming in a restaurant. I want to love my job and look forward to going to it everyday. I want to talk with the worlds top adventures, scientists and philosophers. I want to learn. Always. I want to read and be transferred into a world thats not in the realms of this universe. I want to be free. Gosh there are so many dreams I have. I have my life painted perfectly in my brain. I know that life doesn't always go to plan but there is no harm in trying. Who knows. Maybe I can live my life like that one day. Maybe one day when you walk into my house you will see me buried in papers and research. Not on computer but on old coffee stained sheets. I want to meet the person of my dreams who is equally as weird as me. Someone who loves books and science and adventures and philosophy as much as I do. Someone who knows how I think, knows all my weirdness but still thinks I'm sane enough not to be put in a mental hospital. My vision of a perfect life is very different to many. I want to make my parents proud. I want to give back to them more than what they have done for me. I want to make my grandfather proud. And more than anything I want to wake up one day and say"I did it."

Realisation...

2013! I hope this year is better than the last. Even though 2012 was pretty awesome :P
 So as promised here are my new years resolutions

1. Make new friends
2. Socialise more
3. Get out more with friends and family
4. Don't hate anyone
5. Don't fall in love with anyone (brownmanthinks is an exclusion to this)
6. Stay motivated 
7. Study as hard as you can
8. Try to stop biting your nails
9. Do an act of random kindness
10. Get an Atar of 90 + and get into the course i want to do

This is my last year in high school and as much as I have always wanted to leave it and go into the new world I will miss it. I will miss all the people that I've grown with in these 6 years. I will miss roll call and classes, the out door shelter, all the teachers and students. The people i love and even the people i cant stand. I will miss them all. They all add to the atmosphere of the school. But most importantly I will miss my friends. Ive grown to love them so much that I cant imagine going to Uni without them. Now i know that I don't go to Uni until next year but I'm graduating in 9 months and although that seems ages away i know it will come sooner than anyone will ever expect. I really don't want to go to Uni without them. Will anyone in Uni be able to handle my weirdness and stupidity. Will anyone know how much I love food and my habit of making jokes that accidentally insult people. Will anyone ever know me as much as they know me? I don't think so. They know me like I know myself. There like my family. Yes there are fights and tears and insults but that just adds to it all. Im getting all emotional thinking about leaving them behind and meeting new people. Yes sure I want to meet new people but no one will ever be able to take the place of these people. I know i will never loose contact with them nor will my friendship with them weaken but it's just sad how i cant see both of my idiots in school and class everyday. I will try and make the most out of this final 9 months with them. Although I will be occupied with studies and what not I will still try and make some room for these wonderful people. Gosh this year has gone on so fast and now 9 months seems so little.