The worst day of the year

So today has been the worst day so far, the whole day went bad, everything! So, I usually wake up at 5:45 am to study, i woke at 5:45 and i was liek ill sleep 15 minutes, insted i slept 30. Then i woke up and studies, yet i didnt understand anythign and nothing was going through my head to I went back to sleep. Well not sleep, i lay in bead listening to Kyle and Jackio. Then at school while I was walking to roll call, as usual there were heaps of people around and walking among then I fell into the drain infont of the out door shelter. My shoe died. In biology I forgot my homework sheet and then when i handed my Bio Prac teh techer told me off for my conclution and how i didnt answer it properly. This wouldnt be bad if i was acing biology and i just lost my dignity. So i started my mini body of art for yr 11. I wanted to take it home and usually we are alod to, finsih it off. The teacher goes "PUT IT BACK IN THE CLASS" so im like "Miss, may i please take this home and finish it off becuase i have 2 body of arts due in 2 weeks" she replyes "PUT IN BACK IN THE CLASS!" so yeah. In english there has never been a day (so far) wher ei ahve misinterpreted a quote or a passage, but today, og today i misterpreted a qoute not only once but teh same one three times. Then on teh way back home on teh bus my brother decided to say rude and stupid things to me in public. Now i am home and i feel like doing nothing. I want to go to sleep, i dont feel like studying, i dont feel liek anything. I have so much homework though, GRAHHHH i hate you life.

Thought Police

I'm currently reading this book called 1984 by George Orwell. It's quite facinationg but its to dragy, liek it explans one thing for soooooooo long that by teh time he finsihed explaining that scene you completely forget what scene he was referring to. My preliminary exams will be based on that book so i guess i have to read it even thouht i dont really want to. However, the book is interesting, its about this charatcer called Winston who lives in a totaliarian society or whatever its called. The whole palce is restriced and you can not do anythign in your free will. This alleged super power figure of "Big brother" is constantly watching over you and there are these things called "telescreens" which is like a mini TV set in every single person room, and through that TV Big brother and these people called teh thought police can see you adn yoru every move.

So now, this book is set in Lonson which is now called "Airstrip One" and English is no longer a langugae it is now "Newspeak" and its a weird jumbled version of English. If people were caught by the thought poliece they will get exicuted in public which is not that nice. But yeah that main point of my blog today is that there is this guy in my class.  He is like a thought poliece. He analyses your every move and its so freaky, its like hes reading yoru mind and all that. This guy right, he startes at you and say you just turn to see him and he just moves his glance in the most shifty way possible. At other times i see him scanning the room, wiat for it, IN SLOW MOTION. Like how the hell is thapossible? Im not joking he litteraly scanns the classroom, looks at someone for a while (whilst telepathically reading their thoughts) and then, when that person looks bakc he shifts his glance! Anyways enough about him, i have deceded to name him the Thought Police!

So now to a different topic (I really should be studying now). There is thsi very sweet afghani girl in my class. She is so sweet and very nice and is an amazing artist! Simply amazing, amazing itself in an underestimate ahha but yeah. The main thing about her i want to talk about today is her culture. Its so different to mine and the majority of the world. She was telling me the otehr day that her brothers are getting married. The facninating thing is that the wies are form pakistan (thts not the faconating thing this is) and they are 15! And her brothers are 20! Now that wont look bad when they are 20 and 25 but now it looks so weird. But not weird its like its so facninatiing how its completly normal for them to get married at that age. She herslef was telling me that she is getting married after her HSC! (WEDDING TIME) haha :P The world is such a facinating place, there are so many cultures and values if people we are yet to explore. Ive always loved teh middle east and its vastly different culture to ours. I have alot to learn from this girl. She is such a lovely girl, i wish you cyberpeople who i possibly dont know could meet her. But anywho i should really start studying i have to do Maths,Legal and Earth and Environmental Science T_____T
ciao

4th week and im already cramming

So we have come to the end of yet another schooling week that gets me closer to my final exams. Its only week four and i feel the pressure on my shoulders. My biology teacher says im working to hard and will burn my self out she reccomends me taking my dog out for a walk fro 30mins each day. I only did 8 minutes each day so my teacher assignment my dear friend Andrew to accompany me in dog walking and to report to her if i actually went. Haha. We also have a Legal inclass essay which i am bascially freaking out about. This is my first legal essay and i have no idea what im doing and if im doing it right. Its killing me! Im confident with my sciences, i can ace those but its legal and english that posses as a threat to me. This would seem very weird to people as most people who know me know that i LOVE english and anythign to do with it. Yet i am suddenly so terrified failing it. *Sigh* I have so much work to do and the main thing going around my head is this essay. I droped chemistry and took up Earth and Evniornemnt, which is very interesting! However i have to catcup up 50 pages worth of stuff that the whole class did. My maths teacher showed me a cheats way of answering quetsions which was pretty coool. I love my maths teacher he makes maths just that much more fun. Haha, i have this weird guy in my Maths class who i spend most of my time laughing at. But with good reason ofcourse, he does teh most stupidest things like he put a "thetah" where there is a square, clearly indicating that its a right angle and thus 90degrees. But no, this guy puts a thetah anyway and trys figguring the answer out. He soent 2 whole lessons on it until he came to a conlcustion that no, thetah does not go there insted it goes on teh adjacent side. I have no life, my recess and lunches are spent running around to different facultys to get teachers to maek my work and give me feed back. The time i have to spare im in the seniors room studying, unless its thursday then im in teh art room making artworks. Ahhhh i dont know what to do!  Theres a UN Youth camp coming up for yrs 9-12 and im going WOOT WOOT im very excited! Its about teh middle east which is one of my most favourite subjects of all time. Its hpefully going to be some awesome 3 days! I have to debate there, no idea how thats going to go. I wanna make some new friends as well, maybe meet my potensial mason? haha, i dont knw. I have no time to write in my diary thats annoying me. I m so stressed out i need to take a break from things but i cant i have to much on my plate and to little time to consume it! Help?

The difference between wealth and status

Money: The root of all evil. Well maybe not so much evil BUT money has indeed got the power to change people. People you once loved could very well turn their backs on you because they are now “rich”. However I have a question. Do you how rich a person is by their money or their personality and dealings with people less fortunate than them?

Status: Something that brings you great respect from all over the place. In my perspective I think having status in the society is more valuable than having a tone of money. A robber may come and steal your money or you may lose it in some misfortunate event but you can never lose your status which you have earned.

People who want money more than status are crazy. Think about it, one person who has, I don’t know say around $500 000 in their bank account and another has respect form many and hold a very high profile status among the diplomats and officers of the world. Which one would you prefer? Yeah I get it that the person with the money can build a huge mansion and have a Mercedes Benz while you still drive that old Toyota that you bought from some random dealer down in North Shore or somewhere rather, and you live in a house that’s pretty good but not something that shouts our WOW.  But why, why would you want to trade your life or be like that person with the huge amount on money when you have status? WHY ? WHY?

Whoever you are that’s reading this your probably thinking I am crazy but I feel this is a serious issue. Well probably because its in issue to be right know due to various reasons the cyber world should not gain knowledge of.. But yeah I just feel that having status is more important that having money. You see one day that persons money may run our or may not, but most likely it will. But if you have status that won’t run out any time soon. Status is like a fine wine, the more you let it age the more better it becomes. Also, persons who want money more than status, who knows, maybe you can win the lottery tomorrow. Haha but even if that doesn’t happen, always remember that everyone can steal everything from you besides your knowledge…

Lost already, and the race hasnt even started

I feel very anxty and raged right now. I feel as if there are too less hours in a day for me to complete my studies and revise to ensure i get a good mark. Gahh. I've been in a constant fit of rage in within the past 30 minutes and i feel like ripping all my books, burning them and doing a little fire dance around them. I Want to fast forward time and go into the future. Im hating life at the moment because, well not so much because of the work load but because i have only 5 hours a day at home to finish homework revise and learen new stuff so i can stay ahead of the time. Ontop of that i seem to be forgetting stuff such as some basic leagl stuff and other random stuff in biology. AHHH! will i ever be able to remember all this? And this is only the beggining of the year! How will i manage my time? I dropped chemistry today. I rela,ised i wouldnt be able to do it in HSC so i dropped to Earth and Environmental Sciences. Art is really fin however, i made three art works. One with ink, one with chalk and one with pastel. haha :P i signed my name of for the public spekaing thing but i crossed my name off today due to my extremly LOW self confidence. *Sigh* what else? I feel like throwing a punch at someone. Hopefully in the morning ill feel better and yeah. Ahh im so angry because i can't memorise stupid stuff. What if i forget everythign in teh HSC? nah hopefully that wont happen. So far ive done 2 hours of bio which was too much because then 3 hours to do legal and english.  I did a bit of legal but not that much because i couldnt remmebr some notions so i just left it there ill probably finish it off tomorrow morning.
*Sigh* this post is like a diary entrey  ==' anywho i dont know what i will do know. Possibly english but im still in a fit of rage. .